It has been the first few days of Lent and I’ve already messed up. For this Lenten season I decided to do something slightly different. I decided I was going to be more patient with my kids and keep my voice down when speaking with them…… BUT as I mentioned before, I already messed up!
My kids go to school about 7 minutes away…not too far, but far enough, and to get them up and ready to go can definitely be a difficult task. They wake up groggy and want 5 more minutes and they dilly dally…. typical boys! Hahaha I really want to have a nice and easy morning with them, but it has been hard especially when they fight over very silly things. This morning was a better morning than yesterday, but I always feel so rushed.
Every time I start to feel the anxious feelings of being late, I ask God to grant me patience, but now reflecting on this, I see that God is granting me more opportunities to practice the virtue of patience and love. I pray a hail Mary to ask for Mother Mary’s intercession to allow me to be changed by her prayers. I realize that with the grace that God has given me, I am called to exercise a lot of patience.
I have apologized to my kids for raising my voice at them, and they were very kind to forgive me. I understand now how my mom felt when I was growing up. She used to come into my room and wake me up, and I would raise “the finger” (pointer finger) indicating that I wanted one more minute. She used to get so mad… and now I understand what it must have been like for her. She must have lost her patience more than I recall. In those times when my kids are testing my patience, I will remember that God is allowing me to have opportunities to practice the virtue of patience!
Please God give me the grace to practice patience!
Sincerely, you disheveled daughter,