Yesterday of all days was one I never want to relive, nor would I want my enemy to experience. Everything started two days ago (Monday) when Philip was feeling sick; he had a fever, so he stayed home from school, and because I couldn’t leave the house, to drive Isaac to school, he stayed home too. Around 7:30 pm, Isaac started to feel sick, so I gave him medicine and he started to feel better, but early the next morning, Isaac’s temperature rose too fast too quick, and he had a febrile seizure.
As I stood over his convulsing body, I couldn’t find the words to say. Watching your child go through something and not be able to do anything about it is heartbreaking. All I could do was pray for him to be safe and for it to go quickly. In a panic, I called Rios, and then my mom, and then the ambulance. As I waited for the ambulance, all I could think was, Lord, please allow him to be okay!! My mom arrived first, and she came to stay with the Philip and Aaron as I was getting ready with the paramedics to transport Isaac to the hospital. It’s better to be safe than sorry, especially when it comes to your kids. Thankfully, Rios caught his bus home in order to make it back to us before Isaac and I left. I looked at my little guy with such love and care and I knew that he was being well taken care of. He would be alright and I was grateful to the Lord.
I had a thought as I was sitting in the waiting room, if I’m feeling like this, what more of our father in heaven??? He looks at us and must weep for us. If only we knew how much He truly loves us! He watches us and hopes that we know that He is taking care of us. He knows what we need, when we need it, but we have to be open to looking for the signs that He sends us. Sometimes He will send people, or occasions, or deep emotions in order to wake up our love for Him. His love is so infinite that it is His love that we are searching for when our lives feel hopeless. Yesterday’s emotional roller coaster had me exhausted and trusting. I was emotionally exhausted from having a full conversation with a sleeping child, and from the turmoil that would happen later that day, but I also felt the love of God with me as I was going through this process. Especially during times of lent, we will be tempted by the devil, but it is in those times where we constantly pick the Lord that will help us draw closer to Him.